Moon/Chiron Aspect

The moon is the mother, the Chiron is the wound combine these two in hard aspects you get a kind of mother who sees nothing but her own suffering. For a child who has this hard aspect in her natal chart, her torment comes from seeing or hearing her own mother talk about her pain and issues incessantly all thought out her life without any consideration that the child  might be needing emotional support rather then her issues. That is abandonment, no doubt. In a way, the mother abandoned her child in pursue of her own selfish issues.

Later on, the child won’t be able to learn how to take care of her own self, she will never know who she is against the world. She won’t have any idea on how to nurture her own self because the very figure in her life who is suppose to teach her that is not around. She was abandoned, emotionally so she will abandon herself eventually. The child with this aspect will never grow or perhaps will find it hard to transform herself because she doesn’t have the emotional security we all need when we come face to face with our 8^th house, the house of death and transformation.

There will always be the pain of separation and the longing to be united. There will always be the feeling of not belonging, that there’s something wrong. With 1^st house Chiron, there will be issues with self expression and the personality itself. The Chiron child will always be picked on, bullied for always appearing to be painted on the wall. Such vulnerability is seen in the world, and the world always take advantage of such weakness.

Chiron in 2^nd house will have issues with self worth, and having to discover her own innate talents. With third, there will be issues with the mind, siblings or communication. Some may have some sort of speech defect that is debilitating to the child’s psyche. With Chiron and moon, the emotional aspect of self is wounded. The instinct and the ability to trust the instinct is wounded. There’s always this instant where the child questions himself how he end up on certain situations.

The moon/Chiron child unknowingly have shouldered the burden of her mother’s issues, with hard aspects, it appears that this is not what the child wanted. But she had. And when she tried to find a cure, mostly from having relationships with opposite sex, the moon/Chiron child would always end up with someone she expects to give her the nurturance that she isn’t capable of giving to herself. The Chiron child could end pretty resentful, angry and bitter towards life, her family, her own heritage and even to herself. Because she believes it isn’t fair.

Early in life, she took on the role of her own mother, trying to mother herself, which usually doesn’t work later on in life. It is the responsibility of the mother to respond to the child’s need for emotional security and when she doesn’t get it, she will be lost. The child might probably believe that her mother might as die because the mere fact that the mother is with her child and yet not be there to supply what she is suppose to give, the child will be confused. And uncertainty is the curse of moon/Chiron aspect.  To be uncertain in life, with one self is dangerous. The child could have the immense potential but if she doesn’t trust her own self, she will drift away and could be lost forever.

With Chiron on the 1^st house Taurus, the child could be very angry towards her own mother. Thus might be resentful of her own status or success in life. To her, the pain of not having the security she badly needs is far greater sacrifice than anyone could ever give. To a child whose mother is the source of her pain, there is no greater pain than that. The child wants to respect her mother but the mother is not worthy of such respect as to not being able to provide what the child needs. They say that this is the loneliest combination. It is I believe. There is no greater pain than to long for a love that will never be given by your own mother who is always there, but not bring comfort, but to add for more pain.

The child perhaps, at one point may have thought of death, of simply dying only to ease the pain or perhaps to escape but this wound is so deep that I don’t believe it will ever be healed. And even if it does, it will leave a scar too obvious to even hide. The mother is the cause of pain and the child is the victim. Remember that the authority is still the mother and not the child. The child must not be punished for the sins of the mother or the father, but it turns out that the child who is innocent from all the chaos may be the one who suffer much.